I have been crying… a lot lately. Like, I blame TOM. We all know what that stands for.

And SURPRISINGLY enough. It’s not because I’m sad. Of course, kind of… but it’s amplified. ALL HARD TO EXPLAIN! Read below.

Friday was crazy, I had to go to job orientation for my L2TT2L job. I told Tony I’d meet him up @ Barnes & Nobles @ Prudential at around 6:30 PM. I got there at like 7:30… I looked for him for a while and I didn’t find him and when I was going to give up, he was reading a book by the window @ the bookstore.

I ended up cryingggg, lol. I just felt really bad about having him wait an hour longer and stuff and just, cried. lol

Yeah, I know… perhaps not a cry-able thing to cry over, but I did…

Tony kept kissing me and I just kept apologizing and apologizing and… wow. lol

Then I just like, knelt down on the floor and laid my head on his knee.

I had never felt safer. ♥

I felt like crying out of happiness then… xD

Lots of happenings lately. Had a group that was a little shit and one particular (KS) team member that would not shut the fuck up and kept panicking when she thought everything would fucking fall the fuck apart because Colleen didn’t come.

Whoo~ that was a run-on thought.

Anyways.

Yesterday I did a good amount of crying, lol.

THIS PARTICULAR TEAM MEMBER did not make it any easier on me when she decided she was going to panic since Colleen didn’t come and was sick.

THAT PARTICULAR TEAM MEMBER should take a fucking chill pill and calm the fuck down, ’cause everything is alright again no fucking thanks to fucking her.

Anyways!

Tony was really sweet a few days ago and the week before (he always is but this stood out)!

I got a summer job and the hours are pretty much… day-draining and demanding. Monday through Thursday from 9-3, and even on Saturdays from 12-4. It sucks up a good portion of my summer. Tony’s also going to San Francisco over the summer, so we can’t see July 4 fireworks together…

But I got really worried over how the job would end up breaking us up… ’cause you know… lack of time spent together, ‘you value work more than you love me’… kinds of scenarios…

I’m just rather paranoid like that because I can’t bear to lose him, and it will be our first summer together.

Gosh, lol… I started to cry when I was thinking of it and Tony came over and gave me a hug, saying how he wouldn’t break up over something like a summer job. Then he went on to saying he hopes he doesn’t do anything wrong, and if he does, he hopes I could forgive him… and it was just the sweetest thing ever, ’cause I’ve never heard anyone sound… so sincere.

And… I am such an easily scared person… ._.;;

Tony popped out and it scared me from the door and I started to cry when we got on the bus, lol. It was the stress and the building up that made me cry, and… yeah. I don’t like to be scared-surprised like that… lol.

I wish I had his sweater with me, though. My mom would probably get suspicious though… OVER NOTHING. D< Despite the fact… I wish I had his sweater with me. It’s warm and it reminds me and smells like him. ♥

Project is finally almost done, just need to present and tolerate my team members a little more, and it’s done. Just a little more.

Phi didn’t get the job though, so I’m like. Mortified. They put her on a waiting list. THEY DEFINITELY DO NOT KNOW WHAT THEY ARE MISSING. D8

;-;

I luff me friends and boyfriend oh so much.

;~; <3 ♥

got the l2tt2l job! i’m delighted actually, lol

got the call earlier today

thing is though

it’s pretty much the entire summer

and i’m kind of scared that i might end up breaking up with him if i don’t give him enough attention because of work

it’s 4 days a week from 9-3

mon – thu

._.

i feel like crying